How Loneliness Haunts Her!

Most Indian girls go through this. She had a broken marriage. She was hesitant to attend any functions, with the thought of answering unwanted taunting questions. Few family functions are most important which she can not avoid. She had a brothers wedding which she cannot miss. It’s a big fat wedding. During the process she was humiliated so much in the name of rituals. She smiled throughout. There comes these photo sessions where everyone are with their spouses. Each one is busy with their own families. Naturally she missed her spouse and she was left alone. She was crying inside but she cannot create a scene in the wedding hall. It was painful for her. There are these people who talks about her that “ how in spite of having a broken marriage she is so happy and enjoying. Nowhere she is showing she has pain. Some people even cursed her that god has done the right thing to her. They even said , she deserves all of it”. She is so much hurt to hear all these. Now it’s time to look at the wedding albums. Everywhere she is alone. Her parents are together , sister is with her family and also brother has his own now. She has no one ! The wedding album haunts every time she takes a look at it. Her eyes are wet while viewing the wedding album!

Even before her brother’s marriage she went through so much humiliation by listening to the free advises given to her. That how she should be and not to be after her brothers wedding. People are so keen in giving suggestions irrespective of she wants or not . Each and every minute they make her think she is all alone. It’s some people and society who will not let her come out of the pain she is going through.

Of course one cannot make everyone happy and so does she. Leave her to herself. Mind your own business. Stop being judgemental about her life. You really don’t know what she is going through!

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When She was Pregnant! Part-1

In continuation with my previous blog, I missed an important part. Like most of the girls , she also wanted to get pregnant and have a family of her own. Somehow she had a fantasy of having twins, a boy and a girl. I promise 🙃 When she got married also all was in her head was to be a good Daughter-in-law to in laws, a good wife for husband and a very good mother to her children (assuming she will have TWINS)😂. After marriage her eagerness about having a child became more because she was so curious how their baby look like(I believe both she and her husband look good, atleast to my eyes 🤣) and both of them were a terror and crazy, she was more curious what if it inherits both of their behaviour together and how to handle that collective bunch😂 Because both of them were not easy to handle by everyone. Till this moment she wasn’t sure about her husband’s views about having children. But once he had told her, who doesn’t like kids??and he would love to drop and pick them up from school😂 and then spend time with them as he would want to be a good father.

It was may be 6 months after their marriage, she missed her periods suddenly. Waited for 5-6 weeks and it dint happen. Usually her cycles were regular. Somewhere she was tensed and kinda happy thinking what if it’s positive and scared thinking if they are really ready for it. Kinda mixed emotions. It was a Friday night (weekend) and she mostly had off from work on Saturdays and Sundays. That weekend her husband and his family were forcing her to go back to her parents as usual . Because their plans you remember(from my previous blog)?? Weekends their son must go out with his friends and his sister like how he was before marriage. If she there in their house she will create issues saying atleast on weekends he don’t give her time or takes out or atleast spend time with her inside the house. Because from the time they got married he always used to say he is very busy. May be they had planned well about this whole marriage before and after.

Let’s come back to the Friday night. Her husband tells her he has plans to go out on Saturday night and he checks with her if she would like to go to her parents house. She denies it angrily saying she do not wish to go as her parents doesn’t like her going there very often unless it’s with him or only if it’s needed. As her parents wanted her to give more time to the husband and his family to get adjusted and used to the matrimonial house than going there every now and then without husband. Her husband never liked accompanying her to her parents house. Everytime she used to go alone and it was their arrangement that she must visit my parents on weekends as their daughter will be with them every weekend. But her parents were not liking it and she used to get scoldings from them as it was a new marriage. Because they were scared that people would think she had fought with husband and come.

Well, again let’s go back to Friday night. After she denies to go back to her parents home she sleeps off without much talking. Next day is a Saturday and usually they were spending some more time as it was holiday for her and later she would go off to her parents on most weekends as per their plan. Next morning , he noticed that she was a bit angry and did not speak much also he had plans to go out leaving her on Saturday night and she was going to stay in their house , he wanted to handle her well and he was kinda sweet enough with his talks and actions. She felt , wow and it’s a good time and let me tell him the news. now she make up her mind to tell him , about missing her periods and she may or may not be pregnant. For her surprise , he dint react and he was shocked to know . She thought may be this is how all fathers reaction would be.

Then she asks him to get her an UPT(Urine Pregnancy Test) kit which he did not get her till that evening. He makes his sister to get the kit after planning with his family well. She was shocked and was totally unaware that she would get the kit as she was as expecting her husband would get her. She hated her sister in law because she was wicked. Somehow she had all weird notions about life , marriage and society. She used to think , because of society one should get married and it’s not compulsion that you have to be with your husband or wife all the time. You must be with your friends outside always like how you were unmarried. End of the day you will go back to bed with them. Basically she means , she don’t want to be with her husband all the time and her brother also shouldn’t be with his wife. She had put these thoughts into her parents as well as brother. She is kind of dictator in the family. One more important thing, she don’t like to have children as she thinks there is just one life and we should enjoy it. Kids and all unwanted pain and responsibilities. She had filled the same thoughts to her brother also. So he had the power of his mother and his sister. Father was a little better and he was not into these things. Let’s move on now!

First of all she was furious that her husband made his sister to get the kit, secondly he was not there when she wanted to do the test. With a sad mood, she checks and it was Faintly Positive which would leave her scratching her head. Is she really pregnant?? Read my next blog to know what happened later.

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